🌿 Healing the Body, Freeing the Spirit: My Journey Through Trauma, Somatic Release, and Manifestation

Carrying What No Longer Serves You

We live in a culture that tells us to push through, to numb out, to “be strong” and ignore our pain. But what I’ve come to realize is this: what you refuse to release doesn’t disappear. It lodges in your body.

Anger that you bury becomes tightness in your chest.

Stress becomes knots in your shoulders.

Shame becomes the sinking feeling in your stomach.

I know this because I’ve lived it.

The past few months have tested me in ways I didn’t expect. I walked away from the TikTok lives I’d been building and went back to a job that didn’t value me. I quit again, feeling even lower than before. I faced drama with my ex, and I lost legal custody of my kids — not because I didn’t love them, but because I refused to keep fighting and tearing myself apart in endless battles.

I found myself asking, what was it all for?

The grief, the anger, the hopelessness — they built up in me until I felt like a stranger in my own body. And that’s when I realized: I was holding on to things that no longer served me, and they were blocking the flow of everything I was trying to manifest.

Trauma Lives in the Body

Trauma isn’t just in the mind — it lives in the nervous system. It lives in the way your body reacts before your thoughts catch up.

When your cup is empty, when you’ve been convinced you’re not enough, you start to move through life from that place of emptiness. You can’t give. You can’t create. You can’t manifest.

The body remembers every fight, every failure, every word that told you that you weren’t good enough. And if you don’t release it, it festers.

That’s why somatic healing is so powerful. Unlike talk therapy, somatic therapy works through the body to unlock the energy trauma traps inside us. It says: you don’t just need to think your way out of pain — you need to move your way out of it.

Somatic Practices That Help Me Release

Here are some of the practices that have been helping me shake loose what no longer serves me:

• Shaking: Literally shaking out my arms, legs, and body for a few minutes. It resets the nervous system and reminds me I’m not stuck.

• Breathing Deep: Breathing into my belly, not just my chest, until I feel space open up in my ribs.

• Grounding: Laying flat on the earth, palms open, letting the soil take what I can’t carry.

• Stretching & Movement: Simple, intentional movements that release tension and remind my body it’s safe.

None of these erase pain instantly. But they create space — and in that space, I find hope again.

Shadow Work and Uneasy Spirits

Alongside somatic practices, I began shadow work — facing the parts of myself I’d rather avoid. My fears. My failures. My patterns.

But here’s the truth: shadow work isn’t glamorous. It’s not quick. Even when I confront my shadows, I still feel uneasy. Healing doesn’t mean the darkness vanishes; it means I can walk through it without getting lost.

I’m learning that healing is not an end point. It’s continuous, like breathing — an everyday act of returning to yourself.

Returning to My Mission

Even when I felt lost, my mission pulled me back: my organization, my calling, my vision of Divine Humanism.

I realized something important: healing myself is part of healing the world. I can’t build heaven on Earth if I’m carrying hell inside me. I can’t lead others if I’m drowning in my own despair.

So I choose to release. I choose to stop gripping failure so tightly that it defines me. I choose to believe again in my worth, my divinity, and my ability to manifest peace — not just for me, but for those who will come after me.

You Are Only Down If You Believe It

Let my testimony be a beacon for anyone reading this:

✨ You are only down if you believe you are.

✨ You are only trapped if you accept the cage as home.

✨ You are only broken if you let pain have the last word.

Manifestation starts within. If you believe in lack, you manifest lack. If you believe in worth, you manifest abundance.

Healing doesn’t erase the past. It transforms how you carry it. And that transformation is what creates space for miracles.

Final Word

I am not healed. I am healing. And that’s enough. Healing is continuous, ever-changing, and deeply human.

So if your spirit feels uneasy, if your body feels heavy, if your cup feels empty — shake, breathe, release, and begin again. Believe the best about yourself. Because the moment you do, you’ll begin to see the life you’ve been reaching for take shape all around you.

🌍 This is Divine Humanism in practice.

🌱 This is manifesting through healing.

💚 This is my testimony.